truth.

Sometimes I beat myself up about how “weak” I am and how I “can’t handle a lot” or how “I’m not as strong as I thought I was and I can’t rep the Parker name well” because of it. I hate that place of my mind. I hate that little voice that lies to me into thinking I don’t have what it takes to represent Jesus Christ.

Today God asked me something that completely changed my perspective on myself. He said, “When have you ever given up? When have you ever not lived up to your worth? Why would every day end in success if you failed me?” Then He told me, “Sister Parker, open your eyes. Listen with your ears. Soften your heart. And exist. Just exist. Just do what you do best because what you do best is you.”

I have been called to this work. By God. He gave me the authority to wear the name of His son on my chest every day and He will provide a way for me to succeed. He would not abandon me because He loves me. How could I ask for more?

Maybe I feel overwhelmed. Maybe I feel inadequate. Maybe I feel like giving up and taking the easier road. Maybe I feel trapped and want to be free. Maybe I feel lost and don’t know what to do or where to go.

But maybe not knowing what to do is the best thing that could happen to me to point me to the place I know to go. The place that has never failed to pull me out of those useless places of my mind. The place I point others to every day because I know how powerful it is. I know the gospel of Jesus Christ is true and the power that the Spirit has to bring me to my knees and help me focus on my Heavenly Father is the sweetest blessing I’ve ever been given.

Love, Sister Parker