Who am I? I have asked myself this question multiple times in my life and have often found part of the answer I am looking for. I have learned different things about myself at different times; times when I sought out an answer and solution to questions and problems I’ve had, and times when life just knew I needed to learn a lesson the hard way. I have talked to people, befriended people, defriended some people, nearly boyfriended some people, and each situation has taught me a valuable lesson and led me to direction of who I truly am. I have doubted and doubted again and then believed and believed again. I have fallen short and needed strength to get back up, and I have been the strength to others to help them back up when they fall short. I am becoming who I am and I am proud of who I am becoming. However, who I currently am is not who I always want to be. I am definitely not perfect and I can think of specific things about myself that I wish I was better at. Now is the time in my life where I need to pick my path and step onto it. I have gotten away with choosing both sides; lost yet found, single yet taken, prepared yet terrified. Now is the time to pick the right way and lead the way. It is time to change my life based on who I used to be, who I am now, and most importantly, who I am becoming. I have often thought that small decisions don’t greatly effect the turn of my life, but I am starting to really understand that everything I do matters. Whether or not I buy a burrito, apply for a scholarship, talk to someone, build relationships, or say my prayers will impact my long-term decisions. I want to always look back and say I have no regrets because even my worst mistakes taught me something I needed to know to continue pushing forward on my path. What to say and do, who to spend my time with, my level of effort towards everything, and the way I choose to treat others and myself will be the deciding factors of which way I am going to go to become something. I can change the world by simply changing myself. That is who I am.
Love, Lily
Leave a Reply